Photoshoot....

This past Saturday I attempted my first ever planned photo shoot with Ethan. I bought a haystack, some pumpkins, small scarecrows and set up a photo area for Ethan to take his fall pictures. I love to edit pictures and I love to take pictures of Ethan so I thought to myself why not start taking my own photos of him, edit them so they look nice and cut out the expense of high priced photo places. I will still probably take him for like his birthday pics unless I get a brilliant idea. I realized that I need to shoot about 70-75 pics in order to get about 20 good ones because the lighting has to be just right, no squinting, and he has to pay attention to the camera. We had a blast making them and even had a few laughs here and there lol Here is a look at the pictures we took, hope you all enjoy them!!

Bulldog love......

Star has officially met her knight in shining armor lol We took her on her very 1st play date ever and it was with another bulldog. His name is Riley and he is 7 months old, Star is 14 months old, they had such a good time together. Watching 2 bulldogs interact with each other is priceless, they both pant like crazy, slobber all over, and run around til it seems like they have no air lol Riley did test her nerves a few times but Star did very well, she never growled nor tried to snap at him. She's an awesome dog!!! They would have had the cutest little puppies if we hadn't gotten Star fixed, but oh well they can still be play mates :o)

Pumpkin Patch

The pumpkin patch just didn't cut it this year for me, seemed that it was kind of boring and I had very little patients. I think its because it was just so hot!! The day we went it was in the high 80's which doesn't seem to be that warm but when you go at noon and are in direct sunlight the entire time.....ummm not so fun lol Ethan had a great time thou, he got to ride on the pumpkin express with his cousin, rode a pony, and looked around the pumpkin patch for the perfect pumpkin. Later that day we all went over to Mike & Angela's for a BBQ which was much needed family time. We had awesome food, great laughs, and memories! Any who here are some cute pics we took from pumpkin patch.

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day

October, 15th is a very special day for a group of very special mommies because this day is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance day to take a quick moment and remember our precious sweet angels that look down upon us. In remembrance of this day everyone in any time zone should light a candle at 7pm to honor our little guardian angels. I know that each and every day our precious Evan Michael looks down on us and watches our tiniest moments making sure we are all safe and sound. He is my sunshine in the morning, the stars in the evening and the sweet whispers in my dreams!! I have a few poems I would like to post and I'm sure I have posted them before but its a perfect time for them.


How do you love a person Who never got to be, Or try again to see a face You only once got to see How do you mourn the death of one Who never got to live, When there's nothing to feel good about And nothing to forgive I love you, my son. You're a person of the wind, Free to be the memory Of all that might have been. I love you, my son, My companion of the night, Wandering through my lonely hours, Beautiful and bright. What does it mean to die before You ever can be born, To live the lovely night of life And never see the dawn Ah! My dear son, You lived like anyone! Life's a burst of joy and pain, And then, like yours, it's done. I love you, my son, Just as if you'd lived for years. No more, no less, I think of you, The angel of my tears.

What makes a mother I closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say, A Mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God, can you be a Mother when your baby's not with you?"Yes you can!", He replied with confidence in His voice, "I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice."Some I send for a lifetime and other's for a day. And some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear. "We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quick My Mommy set me free. I'll miss my Mommy oh so much but I'll visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillow is where I will lay. I'll stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear, Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here So you see my dear sweet one, your child is OK. Your baby is here in my home and this is where he'll stay. he'll wait for you with me until your lesson is through. And on that day that you come home he'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother. It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start.





♥ Evan Michael Williams, Mommy heard your heartbeat, got to see you move, felt your little kicks, and got to release you to God. I love you so much!! You will always be in our hearts, souls, and dreams! Without you, your brother would not be as strong as he is today, Thank you! Mommies love you Evan!! ♥

*October*

October and Fall have finally arrived and I am oh so happy! However because of where we live we don't really get to experience the joys of the seasons changing and today on October 1st it was freaking 90 degrees :o( but I still made it an awesome day. This morning Ethan & I decorated our front yard with all of our Halloween decorations. It took us about 2 hours and was actually a very easy process and because we had most of the decorations already it only cost us about $20 bucks to get the rest thanks to my new decoration favorite store...Dollar tree lol We have also bought Ethan's Halloween costume already...drum roll please......OPTIMUS PRIME. He loves Transformers and we actually just watched the last one Transformers: Dark Side of the Moon and I have to say that is by far our favorite one, much more action, more transformers, and the new girlfriend actually was better than Megan Fox...so its a must see!! We baked Halloween cookies the other day also....I just love this time of the year from October to January is my favorite time because of all the holidays and the family time we all get to have together. I am looking forward to trick or treating with little man, and I'm hoping I will be able to get off work before 730-800 at night cause making an almost 4 year old wait til 8 to trick or treat is not going to be much fun. HAPPY OCTOBER!!!!!
*Preview of Ethan's Costume*

*House Decorations*




*Cookie time*

Random cute pics....

Silverwood Lake

Silverwood Lake seems to be Shauna and I's new favorite place to go and relax and since its pretty close to us it makes it nice to have a place to clear our mind ;o) This time we decided to go during the day so we could see the beautiful lake and the mountains all around, it was about 80 degrees which is perfect! We did not however anticipate the amount of wind that would hit us lol from around the mountain as we walked down to the actual rocks and took a stroll along the lake. We recently bought a new HD camcorder so of coarse we took it up there and got some really good footage.