
Well Im a bit tired but realized I hadnt update the blog in about 2 wks, there I go again being busy lol. Everyone is doing awesome! Shauna and Myself are just working and doing the same ol same ol. We love the weekends because thats our family time. Ethan has a Dr appt on Sept 23rd so we will get to see how much the little chunky monkey weighs. He is now pretty much fully rolling over every chance he gets. He can also hold is own bottle very well when he is laying down. We just went to the store to buy winter clothes and it kinda made me sad already shopping in the 12 month section, granted hes still in 9 months right now but its still hot. He's just getting bigger and bigger ;o( so sad yet so happy.
I have been having some pretty hard time lately, I think because its getting more and more into the months where I was getting bigger and could feel the boys kicking more. I remember everything as if it were yesterday which I am so grateful for but sometimes I wish I didnt because I wouldnt be sad. I also know that the holidays are coming up and Im suppose to have both my boys there not just 1. I know Evan is watching over us but its just not fair (how many times can I say that, the more I say it, it doenst become any fairer) I just think there are so many ppl in the world that dont deserve babies and god can see how much we love Ethan, why would he take Evan from us, we would have been awesome Twin mommies!! I just miss him so much and want to hold him again, I will never be able to do that. ;o( why why why. OK I dont want this post to get sad so Im going to stop now, just know that the next couple of months will be very very hard for me leading up to the day my precious angel left me to go to heaven(December 18th,2007) Mommy loves you baby.
OK back to good happy stuff, I am going to post a few pics from big bear, hope u all enjoy them. Good Night!