TTTS......

Well I have sad and scary news, so I need every ones thoughts and prayers with me, Shauna, and the boys right now. I went to see the specialist today and hoping I would get a good appt out of it, I was wrong. The ultrasound tech determined that we have something called TTTS (Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome) www.tttsfoundation.org It is where one baby the recipient baby will take all the nutrients from the other baby the donor baby. The donor baby will then have a decrease in amniotic fluid and will start to stop growing at the rate it should. Other issues could arise but we are not there yet. We are at a Stage 2 of TTTS, here is the reason why.... Baby A is measuring 3 wks behind schedule at 24wks and weighs 2lbs with a pocket of fluid only to a 3. Baby B is measuring 27wks which we are and is 2lbs 7oz with a pocket of fluid at a 9. They have me going in to see the actual Peri (specialist) on Monday 24th and he will determine what our next step of action is. Baby A looks so uncomfortable because he has so little space to move in and hes crunched into a little ball, it made me want to cry so bad, while Baby B is just swimming in a giant swimming pool in 3/4 of my belly. The Dr has suggested so far that as long as Baby A keeps growing and doesn't loose more fluid and they don't get to a lb difference then we will just watch them week by week, however if it becomes to harmful for them to be in the womb then we will have an emergency C-section and the baby will remain in the NICU until they are ready to come home. I am very scared and nervous but I am trying not to take it out on the boys because I know stress will just make it worse. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, I have a NST(non-stress test) on this Wed. as well as this Fri. then my appt on Mon. I will post again later and keep everyone posted on what is happening with out beautiful miracle boys!! I know they will be survival troopers!!!

Yet another trip to L & D...

On 12-13-07, I was having a hard time telling if I had to use the restroom or if I was going potty on myself( I know gross) so when Shauna got home from work, we decided that we should go to L & D to make sure my water wasn't leaking. It is now 12-14-07, We got admitted and had to run a few tests, which by the way are not the most comfortable tests in the world blahh. She called my Dr to see what he wanted me to do, and he ordered an ultrasound to make sure the boys were doing good, as well as gave me Terb shots, 3 of them every 20min. Those shots are so bad they make me shake sooo bad. I was having contractions and the shot was helping them so they decided to let go home. Apparently I just cant control my bladder or something, I'm not sure what is going on, but I now try to go potty every 30-45mins lol I've been doing a little better since then and have been watching myself and resting, so all seems to be well. Still have Dr appt on Monday so I will post the boys stats, as well as here is a 26wk pic of my belly. It is definitely growing again!!

uncomfortable...

So I am still having my cramping and sever back pain, it doesn't seem to want to go away! GRR I know that sometimes the pains I get are gas pains because they go away shortly after, but with these menstrual like cramps they don't go away for long periods of time and then they come back again. It feels like I'm going to start my period(sorry to much info) but about 5x worse, ughhh. I also have both babies playing in my ribs which makes me not able to sleep or lay the way I want to because I cant breathe. I have 10 more weeks if I'm lucky and I so want to be able to take these little angels home with me after my 3 day stay at the hospital, but OMG they are causing me so much pain right now. I try to grateful and I am, as long as we have wanted to get pregnant I feel selfish for being such a big baby with all this pain and I feel so bad for Shauna because it makes her sad to see me in pain. Last night she was almost convinced to take me to L & D but I told her no. I don't think they are contractions, I think the babies are just readjusting and making more room for themselves but boy do they hurt momma when they are doing it. I haven't been feeling them as much, I gave them a decaf Starbucks today YUMMY! but they only kicked me like 3x, usually they are so hyper, so I am convinced that they just don't have as much room in there. They should both be over 2lbs by now, we will know more Monday, and I should get my first Non-stress test so I'm trying not to go to hospital because they will watch my contractions when I go there. All I do is take baths and use the heating pad, but I need to have a GOOD day sometime soon. I feel so bad for complaining but sometimes I just get so over it, I need to vent and I hate complaining over and over to people because I don't want them to think I'm a big baby lol. Like if she cant handle the growing process how is she gonna handle labor. lol thanks for listening...ill update on Monday after our appt with the specialist!

Trip to L & D

So for the last 3 days I have been having major cramps (period like) and sharp pains in my back, which usually means I am having braxton hicks. Well they started to feel like they were coming all the time 5-6 times in an hour. Shauna and I decided to go to the hospital and get checked out because we wanted to make sure they were doing damage to my cervix and making it shorter. This is the first time we have been to our new hospital and weren't to sure what to expect. They hook me up to all the monitors and the nurse cant find the other babies heartbeat, she was like " I can only find one baby." I told here well there are two in there so I don't know what to tell you. She said she was going to order an ultrasound since she couldn't find it. The ultrasound tech came in and started looking for them and found two Heartbeats!! woohooo after making Shauna and I feel scared like something had happened to the other baby. Baby A was sleeping and didn't move really much at all and Baby B was moving and kicking all over, so that made me feel so much better. Then that same nurse came in and said,"I don't like your twins, no offense to you!!" WHAT, I should have slapped the shit out of her and told her I don't like you either but I was so shocked she said that so I was dumbfounded. She then hooked me back up came in 30 min later and said you aren't having any contractions, its probably gas or a round ligament pain. I know what both of those feel like and they don't feel like Braxton Hicks. Anyways we left the hospital, on a bad note because I don't want to even go back unless I know for sure the twins are coming because she made me feel so shitty about coming in. GRRRRR some people just have no people skills. I go to see my specialist in one week, so we will get new measurements on them and see how their levels are doing. I had to vent a little on my bad nurse experience. Everyone have a good night!!

Doctor update

We had Dr appt yesterday which was to our new Dr and we love him. He is so nice and understanding and seemed like he knew so much about twins. He said if we can make it to 36wks that will be GREAT but he knows I can go anytime from now til then. Both boys are 1.81lbs and 1.85lbs almost 2 lbs each so I'm carrying about 4lbs OOOOHHHH GEEEZZZZ lol the both looked really good in Ultrasound (see pics) He also gave me pills (Terbutaline 2.5mg) to take every 4 hrs to help keep my braxton hicks from coming and if i have them every 10min I am to do to hospital. he basically told me all i need to be doing is getting up to potty and shower and that is it. I also had to take my glucose test which was gross and I am expecting to fail it though because diabetes runs in the family. I am so happy they are doing good and growing just like single babies would. I'm starting to get their room ready and my hospital bag just in case things happen. next Dr appt is with our specialist on dec 17th then we see regular dr again Jan 2nd. I cant wait to see them I'm so anxious, but i need to leave them in there for a while.

Shauna got to see one of them totally kick my tummy and she was like EWWWW that's gross, then we kept trying to get them to do it again and no success.

Baby Shower Pictures

the cake ;-)
some gifts that we recieved
Me opening a gift
Shauna opening a gift

Baby Shower

The baby shower was Dec 1st. It was a very stressful day to begin with because I wanted everything to be perfect. My grandmother and mother in law were the ones throwing the shower and they made everything look sooo awesome. I will post some pics. The beginning of my day was bad because we were expecting about 25-30 people to come to the shower and we had about 14 people cancel at the last minute or just not show up. I understand they all had valid reasons but it made me a little sad. I was EXTREMELY happy and thankful to the ones that were able to come and for all the WONDERFUL gifts that we got. We still need some large things and a few small things but it was a great turn out. We had a lot of fun!!!! Now that I have all their stuff I just want their room to be done and for them to get here. The next 12 wks need to go by fast so I can see my precious babies!!!! The babies are doing good, kicking me like crazy and always in my ribs. I have them listening to music right now on my belly and they are just kicking me around like crazy, I wonder if that means they don't like the song or they do lol!! I feel like I'm getting bigger again so that should be interesting. P.s to my other post my sisters were not able to make the shower ;-( which made my heart sad but hey what can I do. I have a Dr. appt on Wed so I will let everyone know how that goes, its with our new doctor so it will be interesting. THANK YOU AGAIN to everyone that came to the shower as well as to the people that couldn't make it but were still kind enough to get us a gift, we APPRECIATE it sooooo much!!!!