uncomfortable...

So I am still having my cramping and sever back pain, it doesn't seem to want to go away! GRR I know that sometimes the pains I get are gas pains because they go away shortly after, but with these menstrual like cramps they don't go away for long periods of time and then they come back again. It feels like I'm going to start my period(sorry to much info) but about 5x worse, ughhh. I also have both babies playing in my ribs which makes me not able to sleep or lay the way I want to because I cant breathe. I have 10 more weeks if I'm lucky and I so want to be able to take these little angels home with me after my 3 day stay at the hospital, but OMG they are causing me so much pain right now. I try to grateful and I am, as long as we have wanted to get pregnant I feel selfish for being such a big baby with all this pain and I feel so bad for Shauna because it makes her sad to see me in pain. Last night she was almost convinced to take me to L & D but I told her no. I don't think they are contractions, I think the babies are just readjusting and making more room for themselves but boy do they hurt momma when they are doing it. I haven't been feeling them as much, I gave them a decaf Starbucks today YUMMY! but they only kicked me like 3x, usually they are so hyper, so I am convinced that they just don't have as much room in there. They should both be over 2lbs by now, we will know more Monday, and I should get my first Non-stress test so I'm trying not to go to hospital because they will watch my contractions when I go there. All I do is take baths and use the heating pad, but I need to have a GOOD day sometime soon. I feel so bad for complaining but sometimes I just get so over it, I need to vent and I hate complaining over and over to people because I don't want them to think I'm a big baby lol. Like if she cant handle the growing process how is she gonna handle labor. lol thanks for listening...ill update on Monday after our appt with the specialist!