More pictures....

In his carseat
Ready to go to grandma's house

Pictures

Im a bog boy!
sleepy time is the best time
So so precious

Its the Weekend again!!

I have been such a busy lady this past week. We got approved for our house so we are moving in apprx 20days. Were excited about that we just have alot to do before then, my brother is coming in 1 weeks so i am so excited about that we will be taking lots of pictures ;o) I havent seen him since 06' and I miss him. Ethan has been doing really well, he has been doing better at night not sleeping any longer but actually just waking up to eat and go right back to sleep. My grandma bought him some playtex drop in bottles and he loves them compaired to his other bottles. He is getting so big and is out of his preemie clothes, he is now wearing newborn except the legs on the pants are to long cause hes a short man. hehe. We are about to move up to 1 diapers as well so hes just a growing. Here are a few new pics ;o) I will keep everyone posted on the moving situation and how things are going. Have a great weekend!!!

Doggie Pics

Cocoa
Cocoa
Oreo
Oreo

Were officially moving!!!

So we just got word from our new landlord that we are officially moving!! WOOHOOO we are so excited to get started packing and get things going we are doing to be moving on April 18th so we have about 3 weeks, I cant believe it. I am posting this because our doggies need a good home....hes the post and I will post pics as well.....


We are moving to a new home, and our doggies can not come ;o( PLEASE help us find a good home for our dogs. We are moving on April 18th so we would need to find a GOOD home for them no later than the 15th. We are not looking to sell them we mainly just want them to go to a good family that will love them the way we do. Here is all thier info:Cocoa- Neapolitan Mastiff Born 1-17-07 She is 1 yr 2 months about 60+ lbs. She has her most current shots. She is worth about $1200, she is not spayed She is a wonderful dog around children and is very good on a leash. She is not house trained though......

Oreo- Pitbull Terrier- Born Feb 25, 2005, She is 3 yrs 1 mon about 50lbs, She is current on her shots and is not spayed. She is DEAF, please dont take this as a sign that she is mean, she is the most cuddly dog I have ever seen and does not have the mentality of a pitbull, She has been around my 8yr old niece as well as other dogs and is only playful with them. She is a very hyper dog so she needs alittle moving room. We paid $300 for her as a puppy(again not asking for anything for them) .....

If you dont know anyone that could take them could you please repost this for me, so I can get it around. We would like them to be local, and if we could check up on them from time to time. If not its OK we just love them so much!!! and will miss them very very much so!!!

thank you all

Pics in next post, comment me if interested and only serious people please that will provide a GREAT HOME for my doggies!!!

Easter pics

Aunt Dawn got him his 1st Easter Bunny
This ones from mommies
His Lambie from Auntie Angela
So so cute

Pictures, Pictures ;o)

Ethan & Gage (They are 13 days apart)
He loves bath cuddle time
My big boy
with his shoes on ;o)
Happy St. Patricks Day!!!

Happy Easter to all!!!

I havent posted in a while, Ive been so busy. We are in the process of moving in the enxt month so I have been trying to get everything together and I am starting to pack. Ethan is doing great! Im sure he is well over 8lbs now lol, he's getting huge lol. The nights have been tough but he give mommy a break when he can tell Ive had a bad couple days. He got a few stuff animals for Easter, we took pictures with them, they are so cute. We had our 1st huge family BBQ this weekend as well, we did good not to many ppl tried to touch on him and all the kids stayed away. Im back to work tomorrow, we are just enjoying our family day today. My brother is also coming out here in the next 2 weeks, Im so excited but since were moving now my house is going to be choas, watch out lol. Other than that all has been well and we are enjoying the family life. I will post again sometime this week probably not til the weekend thats when I get a split second to do all this. Have a Happy Easter Everyone!!

Ethans Pee Pee update

He went to the Dr yesterday and he said his pee pee is healing just fine and looks good. He also weighs 7lbs 14oz. He gained 10oz in 4 DAYS. WOW what a little porker. lol I dont have much else to update on were having fun with great grandma being here, she just loves Ethan so much I will have some pictures of them on here later. I better go so I can get ready for the day. Take care everyone

Sunday is already here

Well the weekend is almost over, Im back to work tomorrow ;o( This weekend has been ok, got to catch up on some of my sleep last night. Ethan is doing alot better almost back to his normal self ;o) My grandma is coming out here today and we are excited to see her. Ethan goes to theDr on Monday to see if his pee pee is doing ok, hopefully he will get weighed again so we will have another update. I dont have much to report. I may be able to write during the week but if not I will on friday. Everyone have a great week and here are a few more pictures of my little blue eyed boy. ♥

He loves his paci

My handsome man

His 1st Easter present

His Auntie got him a lamb for his 1st Easter present because when he makes noises he sounds like a lamb lol. It is so cute. Our night was better last night I think hes starting to heal alot better. He is starting to fuss right now so I have to make this quick haha. He is doig awesome we are going to a BBQ today to hang out with a few friends, Im happy were getting out of the house. My 1st week back at work was ok, nice to socialize with other adults. Im off to clean my house and make some pasta salad for the BBQ. Have a good weekend everyone ;o)

Picture Time ;o)

I ♥ my mommies!!!

Fat belly
Playing with Mommy Shauna

Pee Pee Appt ;o(

Today was his circumcision appt and the Dr said it went very well. He is in a little pain and has been fussy but I feel so bad for him, they did it a wierd way to where the ring and string are still on his peepee and in 3-10 days the skin will fall off (OUCH) I feel so bad for my little man. He is also a WHOPPING 7lbs 4oz and is 18in long. Since he has came home from the NICU he has gained 3lbs in 4wks OMG what a heifer lol. just kidding but he does make me want to cry hes getting so big. Mommy goes to work tomorrow then I am off for the weekend I cant wait because I love being home with my family, Also my grandma is coming, Ethan's great-grandma on Sunday and staying til Friday we are super excited!! we cant wait!! Well I am off to make dinner and then we are going to watch a movie. Night Night All! ♥

I've come to realize....

that being a mommy, wife, provider, and many more are a very exhausting job. I havent even worked a week yet and Ive had help from Shauna during the night and we are both worn out. He isnt even a bad baby, I just feel like there is never enough time in the world. I get off work at 6pm by the time we eat dinner, feed Ethan, I wash some bottles, and maybe do 1 thing of house work its time for bed and to do it all over again the next day. I havent cleaned my house in a week and for all of you that know me you know that Im loosing my mind over it lol. Its not messy to anyone who would see it but its messy to me. Little man has been doing good at night for us, today I had to leave work early because he has been stuffy so we took him to the ER and his O2, temp, chest sounds everything was ok Dr said hes a healthy good baby that looks like he is about ready to be born, I said yep his due date is coming soon. March 17th he would have been 40wks. I cant believe he isnt even suppose to be here yet. WOW I think I am blessed because I got to spend 13wks with my baby boy more than a mother that had thier baby on time, even though the road was hard and emotional. I will let everyone know how the Dr appt went, but then I have decided to go to weekly blogs instead of daily because I run out of time. I will be posting every friday or saturday to update on how our week went and how little man is doing. He is holding his head up alot more now, and is finishing 3oz on a regular basis instead of leaving some, hes getting to be a BIG boy. I will also know how much he weighs I think tomorrow. Ill keep everyone posted. Love you all goodnight from the 3 of us ;o)

tuesday night....

Well I have been to work for 2 days now and I miss my little man so much when I am away, I make mommy Shauna send me pictures all the time, he has been doing really well and is getting so big he makes mommy sad cause hes growing so fast ;o(. I work tomorrow then I have thur off with him Im so happy. Sunday night he spent the night with Grandma & Grandpa so Shauna & I could get a good night sleep and that was ok but I missed him so so much, the sleep was great though, never turn down the change to get a baby free sleep night. Its now 930pm and I need to go to bed to this is going to be a short one. I will post again maybe tomorrow night but definately Thur evening to let everyone know how the Dr appt went. Good night mommy needs to sleep before bubba wakes up ;o) Night night

Last day before work ;o(

I am off to work tomorrow, so I am sad today because I will be leaving my baby boy with his grandma while I am at work. I know I will miss him very very much!! I think it will also give me a break though, I mean I love him to death but also need a break sometimes. ;o) He is being a good boy today and let mommy sleep some last night, he seems to know when mommy needs sleep and is getting cranky lol. Im just resting all day and spending time with my baby boy til bedtime tonight. Grandma offered to watch him over night tonight for us but then I wont see him for almost 24hrs and I will be really sad at work. So I think he is just gonna stay with us tonight. I also have been missing Evan alot, me and Shauna both and we think it is because Ethan is growing up and becoming a big boy and getting a personality which makes us wonder how Evan would be. I love both my boys and my wife ;o)

He wants to eat every 2hrs!!!

Im at a loss for words lol he wont stop eating he wants to eat every 2 hrs. Its really hard at night because he will eat for about 30-45min then he will wake up again an hour and half later ready to eat again mommy didnt get much sleep last night. I feed him the amount he wants to eat but in no time hes hungry again. Im still sad about going to work on Monday, I only have 2 more days at home with my little man. ;o( Well I need to get in the shower while he is sleeping. Dont have much else to update today

Going back to work ;o(

Well an update on Ethan, He got weigh'd today and he is 6.5lbs and is 17 3/4 in long. He's getting to be so big, it makes me sad but Im so happy that he is growing so well. He is also doing better on his gas and isnt having as hard of a night as he was before, so mommy is alot happier. haha

I am going back to work on Monday ;o( BOOOHOOO can you tell Im sad about it, haha I love being home with Ethan but I also like having extra money so I decided to go back to work a week sooner, I am still taking the 13th off because he has a Dr appt then the 2nd week of April my brother and family is coming to town to visit so I am taking a week off with them, Im so happy I cant wait til they come out it will be fun. I will continue to update my blog but if I do it every other day dont think I disappeared lol...Im just not sure if I will be tired or not have enough time. Im off to watch Dr. Phil. then go have dinner with Angela & Mike for taco YUMMY!!!

Getting Pee'd on HAHAHA ;o<

Well last night was the first night that my little precious man, pee'd on me. It was in the middle of the night and mommy was really tired changing his diaper after a feeding about to go back to sleep and there is came. Pee!!!!!!!!!! I covered him up with my hand and another diaper. So now Ethan and Mommy are covered in warm pee (UGHHHH) and we are both tired. He pee'd on himself, his legs, my hand, it almost got my face, and my bed. We had to change clothes get settled again and then finally went back to sleep. I thought to myself oh man you little shit Hahaha I know he doesnt mean to do it on purpose but of all times, while mommy is half asleep. Last night went pretty well other than that, he ate good, sleep good, and let mommy get some rest. I actually got up at 730am when he was eating instead of sleeping til 1030am. Well we are off to go pay some bills! Have a wonderful day everyone!!!!

He loves his Grandma Lorrie ♥

The what IF's of life....

I want to apologize to everyone who read this to find out about Ethan, because this one is about Evan. I have been trying not to write on here about him, but I needed to get a few things out. Since December 18th, I have been running the WHAT IF's through my head thinking that there could have been something I could have done to make this situation better. These things run through my mind constantly:

What IF I would have told them to watch my babies closer?

What IF I would have went to the hospital the day they said we had TTTS?

What IF I would have stayed in bed more when they put me on bedrest?

What IF I would have eaten alittle better instead of fast food from time to time?

What IF God thought I didnt deserve to have twins?

What IF all the things I have done in the past bit me in the ass now?

What IF this is all my fault?

Now I know it isnt my fault but theses are the many things that run through my head day after day and many more, it would take pages to write all the what IF's that I play with myself. However, I recently read a post by a woman that also lost her twin and she has been my support system other than my family and I thank her. She has made me realize that I need to focus on the What IS in life rather than the What If's. Therefore, I have come to realize:

What IS that I had Evan in my life for 27 wonderful weeks!

What IS that he will never be forgotten and is with me all the time!

What IS that he is miracle in a sense because he made his brother strong!

What IS that without the stress of a twin on Ethan I dont think he would have done as well as he has!

What IS that I have many friends, family, and support ppl that know I love my son and it will never change!

What IS that I will love Evan forever and will tell Ethan he had an amazing brother, one day when he understands!

Thank you very much Jen for allowing me to understand that I cant change anything but I can be thankful for the things I have in life. I struggle from time to time and sometimes find myself on a tangent about to get lost, but you post put things in perspective for me Thank you again.

EVAN MOMMIES LOVE YOU WITH ALL OUR HEARTS!!!!!!

Wonderful Night Out!!

Our 1st night out all by ourselves was a blast. We went to Dave & Buster's and ate dinner & played games. We then went to see Step Up 2. We were like little kids running around playing games and bought candy with our tickets. It was a nice break and a nice date that we both enjoyed very much. We got home at about 1100pm, went to bed about 1130pm and we woke up at 830am this morning feeling refreshed. Ethan was very good for his Auntie. He only woke up 2 times last night and ate very well both times as well as wasnt that fussy either. Which made me happy, I was afraid he was going to be a bad boy. He is now home with me again and Shauna is at school. Im catching up on my house work and just being lazy around the house. Have a good day everyone!!

Somebody's got GAS!!

Well we now think that the reason our little man has been giving mommy so much trouble at night is because he is holding in alot of gas. I am testing it to see if I can get it better because I really dont want to change formulas but we will see. Last night went pretty well because I burped him like 3-4 times while he ate his 3oz and then I would lay him on my chest patting his back til he went to sleep. It seemed to work alittle better and mommy got some sleep!! Thank goodness because I needed it really bad. We also watched this show on baby language and Im trying to learn it, it seems to be making sense. The lady says that there is a language that all babies speak for example like neh is hungry, eh is burp..things like that and since Ive been doing it and listening he has been alittle bit better as far as his fussiness.

On another note, Shauna & I are going out for our 1st date night tonight without Ethan. Auntie is watching him overnight for us and we are going to treat ourselves to dinner and a movie. I cant wait because we definately need it. Having a newborn at home makes us fuss alot at each other as any couple does so I think this time is needed. Thank you Auntie Angela.

P.S. Mommy loves you Evan, I think about you all the time! You are an amazing brother and have made Ethan a perfect baby for us thank u so much honey!! Mommy misses and loves you my baby boy!!!!

More pics....

My little man
He's such a chunky butt
In his basket
So so cute