Christmas 08'

Ethan's 1st Birthday!!

Welcome Baby Brett Evan!

Snow pics

Birthday & Christmas!

Well it has been a while since I have updated the blog as usual I seem to be so busy and cant ever get on here. Two big events have happened. Ethan's 1 yr Birthday and Christmas. Of coarse Ethan got spoiled and got plenty of clothes and toys, more than he ever needed lol but nothing is to good for my bubba. His birthday party was awesome, cake was amazing, and seeing all the friends and family made it a really good day. My sisters and grandma came out so I was able to spend time with them which was good. At the end of Ethan;s b-day party we decided to write messages to Evan on all the balloons from each of us, then let them go into the sky. That was really really hard, we cried and then had to watch Ethan's slode show again it was just very very sad, but we needed to do it. Ethan didnt understand why mommies were crying but he will later on in life.
Christmas was also amazing, we opened lots of gifts got time to spend with family and Ethan had a blast playing in his paper that his presents were wrapped in. He enjoyed the boxes and wrapper paper more than his gifts lol. He is getting very big almost in 18mon clothes, he goes to the Dr for his 1 yr checkup on Jan 13th as well as his next eye appt with the specialist. He will be going to the dentist for the 1st time as well in Feb since he has 4 teeth. He can now pull himself up and stand holding on to things as well as can stand for about 3 sec by himself without falling. He is going to start drinking whole milk tomorrow so we will see how that goes and we are trying to teach him how to clap he gets very excited and does it a couple times but then stops so thats coming soon to I think. He just keeps growing and growing!! Also I dont know if I put this in my last post but our best friend Dawn had her baby. Little Brett Evan(after our evan) was born on Dec 17th 8lbs 4oz and he came home on the 18th the day that Evan went to heaven. ;o) It must have been a sign or something. Well I am going to attempt to upload pictures to the blog but I have a few to upload. Our snow day, some of Brett and Ethan, his birthday, and christmas! I will get started and try to post more often. ;o) Have a good night everyone and god bless!!!

Ethan is almost 1

Christmas 2008
Christmas 2007

I cant believe that in 4 days Ethan will be 1 yr old. Time has flown by so fast, I dont even know where the year has gone. Also my precious angel will be 1 soon ;o( I have been thinking about him more and more and miss him very very much. I plan to write a letter to him on the 18th so until then I will just keep everything in. Ethan is now standing up on his own and holding on to things, he can even move his feet to walk if you help him. His birthday party is going to be Finding Nemo theme and on the 20th, I cant wait Im so excited, plus he will now get to open his own Xmas presents this year. Last year he was way to little so now he can enjoy it ;o) I dont have much else to say today just kinda trying to update the blog since its been a while.

Ethan has done it......

He pooped in his bath!!!! Omg it was so gross! I was watching him take a bath because now he can sit up and play and I just kinda kick back and watch him, he farted so I was like "Babe, Ethan just farted in the tub hahahaha!" and we didnt think twice about it, well then I went into the bathroom to get him out and it smelled so bad, looked into his water and he had floating turds!! EWWWWW It was so discusting, Angela & Shauna almost vomitted Taylor came in laughing at him and I had to sit there and scoop it all out into the toilet while he sit in the big tub with no water ;o( I then washed out his tub and put new clean hot water in there and let him play for another 5-10 mins lol OMG It was hilarious, almost as funny as when he shot poop across his changing table when Auntie Angela was changing him when he 1st came home from the hospital.

On another note! Im sick ;o( Ethan is sick ;o( and so is Shauna ;o( I dont know where this little cold bug came from but it is not fun! Ethan has a runny nose and is coughing, Im stuffy and throat is sore and Shauna is coughing. Wow alot of sick germs all at once, I am constantly lysoling the room so we dont keep spreading it and I am going to wash the sheets tonight I think so we can try to keep them as germ free as possible. ;o( Ethan also now on occassion will say MA or BA we are hoping it is the beginning of Mama or Baba lol and he is still more and more active than ever. I will be posting some pics soon Im at work so I cant really post nething. Well gotta go break is over, only 1 hr and 30 min to go wooohooo Im need to be off Im tired of working. Good night all

Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving was great, we had a lot of fun eating, joking around, and just being silly all day. Ethan was very good and he didnt really take a good nap either, Shauna's grandpa got to hold him and it was just a very very nice time, and I have pics to add later when I am home. There did come a time that I became very sad because we were all in a circle around the fire and my niece Taylor was going around having everyone say what they are thankful for. All of us of coarse said family, jobs, food, our kids, etc. But I soon began to realize that I was thankful for my family however only some of my family was there. My precious Evan had to watch over us as we laugh play and have fun with his brother. I was very very sad and went outside in the cold and talked to him looking up at the stars.
I told him, Mommy misses you baby so so much and the closer it comes to the holidays and the closer it gets to the day you two were born mommy gets sad, I dont want you to see me cry but if I do please wipe my tears. I miss you oh so much and want nothing more than to have both of my sons crawling to the fire, and me making xmas lists for family for both of them instead of Ethan, and when Im driving to families home for the holidays you are suppose to be in the backseat with Ethan instead of Ethan in the middle cause hes the only 1. Y did you have to leave me, Y did you have to make mommy have so many mixed emotions on the holidays. I want my twin boys back so so bad. Mommy loves you!!!!
Im still pretty sad today but I am doing better! I had so many good days and I feel many bad days coming along. No one quiet understands how Im feeling the way that I am right now, and it makes it hard for me to express it because I want everyone so bad to jump into my body and see the hole in my heart that I try to fill so much to the point that it makes it bareable to speak about my son, and look at Ethan knowing that his brother would look just the same. I dont want anyone to hurt the way that I do but I do want people to see my pain and not only because I want them to know and miss him to but I want them to see that sometimes I am awesome and some days I am dead to the world because I miss him so much! I know I need to be there for my family: Shauna, Ethan and all my family and friends but if I could leave for just a sec to hold him and give him a hug tell him I love him and kiss him I would gladly come right back to my family. I want so much to feel him in my arms to hug and kiss me the way Ethan does in the morning! I miss him so much ;o(
On a much happier note, Ethan is getting so much closer to being 1!!!!! In 24 days he will be 1 yr old. WOW how time has flown by and how well he has done from going to 1 lb 15 oz to about 22 lbs now!! My little man is growing up and isnt a baby nemore. I will be posting pics of Thanksgiving soon, as soon as I get a chance to get on the computer at home. My break is now over....wow that took 15 mins to write guess I had alot on my mind.

I am Thankful for:
The roof over my head, food in my belly, job I have to keep my steady, my sons who love me to death, my wonderful wife, all of my family, and the fact that I am now talking to my mom & dad alot more, it makes me feel good ;o)

Have a good night everyone and I will post pics in the next couple of days ;o) Have a great weekend!!!! ♥

Xmas pics

Hospital pics

My family came to visit him

Papa loves his boy

Mommy & bub

Mama & bubba

Ethan in his highchair in hospital

Turkey day is tomorrow!

Well tomorrow is Thanksgiving and as always time has just been flying by! Ethan is now 11 months old, on his way to being 1!!!! eeeekkkkk They grow up so fast, Christmas is fast approaching and its just becoming and end to 2008! Already WOW! Nothing much new has happened, we are going over to Shauna's family's house for turkey dinner and good times which I always love. Ethan now is attempting to pull himself up at least to his knees before he goes back down to his butt, and other than that nothing much has happened, I have a lot of pics I need to post so here they all come! Everyone have a safe and Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!

Yet another trip to the hospital

As most of you already know we spent last weekend in the hospital in the pediatrics area, because Ethan had pheumonia. We 1st took him to the Er on thursday and they said he had pheumonia and they gave us antibiotics and sent us home, we were not happy about it and were sure he needed to be admitted. We then saw his pediatrician on Fri who then admitted him into the hospital, he was having trouble breathing was holding a temp of 103 at times and we could not break it and he wouldnt eat or drink nething. He was hooked upo to Iv's and was given antibiotics thru his Iv until Sun when they sent him home. My mom and grandma came out to see him as well because that weekend we were suppose to be going out to Vegas to see them. He is doing alot better now, still congested and alittle cranky but no fevers. He also broke thru his top 2 teeth over the weekend as well. So he now has 4 teeth! EEkKKK it hurts when he bites. He can now crawl everywhere and is getting into everything! He is 11 months old today ;o( makes me sad how time flys by so fast its already about to be his 1st Thanksgiving and then his 1st b-day and christmas! WOW where has this year gone.

I have also been having many bad days missing Evan because we are coming closer and closer to the day he went to heaven and Ethan is growing up more and more making me think how wonderful it would have been to have my two babies learning to crawl and getting in to trouble together. I have almost convinced myself that I do not want another baby ever because I dont want anything to happen to him/her and I cant do the hospital things again it is just to hard to handle. I miss Evan so much and cant begin to think why I had to loose my little angel! I would have been an awesome mommy to my boys. On Dec 18th we are going to let off balloons in memberance of him as well as just kinda sit around and try not to be sad but I know I will be a mess. I am to the point now that talking about him makes me sad sometimes because time is just so hard thinking he cant be with me.

My break is over, I have new pics of bubba as well as pics of him when he was in the hospital that I am going to try to put on as soon as I get a free second to myself. It seems like I dont even have a moment to breathe by myself let alone get time to do things that I need to do. I work all the time and then have time for nothing else because I am mommy when I get home. I need a well deserved vacation! I will try to update my posts more, since I can now write them at work I just dont have the pics at work to upload them. Good night all!!

Halloween pics ;o)

Grandma & her Grandkids

Silly Bub

Happy Sock Monkey

Happy lil family

My monkey trying to crawl

ok so Im slacking

I know it has been a long time since I have written on here and it is so hard ecspecially cause the computer is in Mike & Angela's room so its hard for me to get in there and be there for a long time. Halloween was a blast Ethan absolutely loved every bit of it, he was so cute in his sock monkey outfit and I promise pics to follow soon, Im a work writing this now because I have a free sec. He loved going up to the houses and we even allowed him to have a lick of a lollipop he loved it. wanted more and more but we had to say no ;o) He is doing well, not sick nemore thank goodness and I think he is trying to get another tooth on top eeeekkkk, I hate teething it makes him so cranky! He can now crawl as long as it is to something he wants and not because mommy wants him to crawl, he is now getting his little hand smacked for touching things and he has learned the work NO lol several times. He loves things he is not suppose to have. I hate working late hours because I never get to see him or Shauna but things are working out well, we are saving alot of money looking forward to the holidays and just spending time with our family, I am SO excited that next weekend we get to take a family trip to Las Vegas to see my family who hasnt seen Ethan since he was like 5 months old or so. They will be happy to see how big he is and how much he can now do. ;o) Other than that not much has changed Ethan went to the Dr the other day to get a shot and he is now 29 1/2 in long but still 21 lbs. He feels like a toddler lol. he doesnt go back to the Dr til Dec 10th for another shot, his synagis shot which helps him not get RSV, which is good. Well I better go my 15 min break is over, I will put on Halloween pics tonight, tomorrow, or Sun for sure so you can see how cute my little man was. talk to everyone soon and sorry Ive been slacking I need to get better at updating this things since Ethan is doing so many new things gotta go. ♥

Family day

Riding a horse

Swinging on swings

Mommy Shauna & Ethan

Cute lil family

Mommy Shauna & Bub

My baby's sick ;o(

Little man is sick with a cold and I feel so bad for him its hard for him to breathe and he just lays around the house because he dont want to play that much, but at least he is still playing ;o) The Dr said it was just a cold and to start giving him med so we can try to stop it from turning into a virus. He also has not recieved his Synagis shot which is to help reduce or prevent him from getting RSV, we are having it out with the medical group right now because he was suppose to have 1 in sept and 1 on oct, its now the end of Oct and no shot they say possibly another 3-6 wks. Thats a whole nother month without him having the shot GRRRRR. Anyway he seems to be acting a little better today so we will see how it all plays out. We are going to a Halloween party tonight so Im trying to do all my catching up b4 I start getting ready ;o) There will be those pics up later, I do have some more recent pics of bub and all of us on a family trip to mojave narrows. Thats about all that is going on right now, Ethan is going to be a Sock Monkey for Halloween, Im so excited to take him out trick or treating. We were suppose to go to the pumpkin patch tomorrow but since hes sick Im not sure if we will.

New pics of My Big Boy

Ethan has 2 teeth & can Sit up!!

Well its been a long time since I have posted alot has changed so I figured it was time for an update! I am now working 11-8pm which is not fun and every other sat so I only get to see my little man in the morning and right b4 bed, I miss him so much on my days I have to work. Shauna has been working alot lately as well mostly 3-11pm so we hardly get to see each other but Sunday we get to have a family day with all 3 of us because we dont have to work. WooHoo Ok on to Ethan's news! HE HAS 2 BOTTOM TEETH!!! and HE CAN SIT UP!!! it kind of all happened over night we noticed he was real cranky for about a week but wasnt sure what it was then 1 day we were feeling in his mouth and yep there was broken skin. Now his teeth have poked thru completely and you can even see them when he smiles ;o) He can also sit up while he is playing or watching his favorite show The Backyardagains. Its a cute little show and he loves it because they sing all the time. I love that he can now look into his toy basket and pull out anything he wants to play with. He is still rocking back and forth and trying to crawl I think we have a couple weeks before that will happen though. I will also post some pics. Dont really have much else that is going on just busy busy busy!!!

Bath time and sleeping