To a perfect Guardian Angel

As the weeks get closer to the day I met you the more and more I think of you, the more and more I miss you. I wonder how different you would be from your brother and how much trouble you both would get into because I know how much of a handful your brother is all by himself. I know you would look just like him but I wonder if your hair would part just slightly different, or if you would have a little darker hair. I will continue to wonder and wonder as time goes on but having your brother here with me make it all worth while because I look at him and see you. I know you come to him and play with him and I want to thank you for that. He knows who you are and knows that you are in heaven watching over him and if you could please just continue to watch him, mommy would greatly appreciate it. I miss you soooo very much and there is a girl that I have been talking to that lost one of her twins and when I looked at her pictures it reminded me so much of you. Why did you have to go, I know you were meant to have a place in heaven but still to this day i just dont understand. I have came to terms with it and it doesnt mean that i dont still hurt or that I dont cry sometimes on my way to work when I hear a country song that makes me think of you, but i do want you to know that not a day goes by that I dont think of you. You are my everything and without the strength that you have given me thru the last 3 yrs I dont know how I would get through some days. I will be sending you a letter soon and your birthday balloons, like always every year! :) I love you so very much, until next time my love xoxoxoxo

WOW...I believe.....

that I'm an official slacker. It has been 5 months since my last post and oh so much has happened. It seemed like as soon as Shauna stopped working all we have been doing is going on mini vacations and taking family trips and I have been so wrapped up with family that I have completely neglected the blog. I think now is the time to change that; we are going into the holidays and I just feel like maybe everyone sees the updates on facebook but it would be nice if I can start the blog back up again. :o) So here goes.......

There is no way that I can catch up on 5 months of updates in one blog and honestly it will take me hours to explain everything in detail so Im going to give the short version of it all. So far this summer we have been to...Universal Studios, Huntington Beach for a beach weekensd, Las Vegas with family, Santa Monica at the Pier, Oxnard for the Dallas Cowboys training camp, San Diego for the Cowboys vs. Chargers game, Laughlin for a friends wedding, Wrightwood for a BBQ, and all around town with friends and family. In October we added a new addition to our family, an English Bulldog named Star. She is now 13 weeks old but we got her when she was 8 weeks, she is such a cutie pie and we are doing everything we can to raise a good dog this time around because we want her to be our life-long pet along with Abby, our cat. Ethan absolutely loves Star and Abby not a day goes by that he isnt playing with one of them or both. He is growing up to be quite a pleasant little boy to have, now dont get me wrong he has his moments but he is vry well behaved and is very smart. He has learned alot since my last post; we have managed to dump the sippy cup :) as well as potty train. Shauna has been a huge help with this because shes home with him all day (as you caan tell Shauna is still a stay at home mom) which I love very very much. It is very nice to come home to my wife and little man and know hes taken care of every day by someone I trust with my life :) Ethan does go to school still 2x a week all day so mommy can have alittle quiet time to herself, which isnt very much now that we have the puppy. We have completely stopped the thought of having another little one for at least a year if not 2. We love our life just the way it is right now and are comfortable with how we are currently living so no sense throwing a curve ball in the mix and adding another additon :o) There is several several pics that I need to share and I will probably just upload them all to a slide show so I can get all 5 months included in one. Halloween was a blast and Ethan was buzz lightyear, he got so many compliments on his costume it was adorable.

My favorite time of the year is coming Thanksgiving and Christmas as well as my little mans birthday, New Years and my birthday woohooo..... I love this time of the year because it is cold outside, we do lots of family movie nights and cuddling, as well as it just makes me so very thankful to have all that I do have in life. It also makes me miss my precious Evan and it will soone be time to write him yet another letter for the 3rd yr. I cant believe that it has been 3 years already since God blessed me with my two beautiful precious boys!! Thanksgiving this year will be spent with my family as well as Shauna's family which I am super excited for. I have not had Thanksgiving dinner with my family in at least 8 years!! Ethan is having a small birthday party this year nothing like last year, I just cant handle all the stress lol I am going to try to post at least once every 2 weeks or so and try to stay on top of it becauses I really do love this blog, I recently went back and read all the posts from when I was pregnant and when Ethan was going thru his hospital journey! We have been thru so very much yet i am very blessed to have what I do have in life. :) Going to make a slideshow now Ill be back in a little bit to post it.