To a perfect Guardian Angel

As the weeks get closer to the day I met you the more and more I think of you, the more and more I miss you. I wonder how different you would be from your brother and how much trouble you both would get into because I know how much of a handful your brother is all by himself. I know you would look just like him but I wonder if your hair would part just slightly different, or if you would have a little darker hair. I will continue to wonder and wonder as time goes on but having your brother here with me make it all worth while because I look at him and see you. I know you come to him and play with him and I want to thank you for that. He knows who you are and knows that you are in heaven watching over him and if you could please just continue to watch him, mommy would greatly appreciate it. I miss you soooo very much and there is a girl that I have been talking to that lost one of her twins and when I looked at her pictures it reminded me so much of you. Why did you have to go, I know you were meant to have a place in heaven but still to this day i just dont understand. I have came to terms with it and it doesnt mean that i dont still hurt or that I dont cry sometimes on my way to work when I hear a country song that makes me think of you, but i do want you to know that not a day goes by that I dont think of you. You are my everything and without the strength that you have given me thru the last 3 yrs I dont know how I would get through some days. I will be sending you a letter soon and your birthday balloons, like always every year! :) I love you so very much, until next time my love xoxoxoxo