needing to vent alittle....

Well not much has changed since my last post. Both boys are doing good, kicking me like crazy but I love it. I needed a moment to vent so here goes. My baby shower is this sat Dec 1st. and I cant wait, however I have been dealing with my family and they are stressing me out. (A little background: I don't really talk to my mom that much because of bad choices that she has made throughout my life, as well as things that she is making my sisters go through as well) I want my sisters to come to my baby shower yet my mom told them they could not come unless she could come as well. NOOOO I cant handle my mom coming to my home. I don't want her here, she needs to prove so much to be before I will allow her in my home and to become the grandmother of my boys. She may be the grandmother by blood but she needs to earn that title. I tried talking to here today and all i did was start crying and got myself upset. I have been holding back many feelings for her that I try not to let out, but I guess I need to start telling her how I feel. I sent her am email and told her to read it because I don't get as upset writing my feelings instead of talking to them. I want my sisters out here so bad and I hope my mom allows them to come out with my grandmother, but I DO NOT want my mother around right now and probably wont want her around after our twins are born just because she has a lot to prove to me. Thanks for listening to me vent a little. I have Dr. appt tomorrow so I will post how that went...well see how much I weight??? and how far along I'm measuring?? Last appt I was 224lbs (30lb gain) and measuring at 33wks....lets see what tomorrow will bring??