This year I didn't write you a letter and tie it to your balloon, instead I simply wrote you a small note saying "I love you." I miss you so very much this year and wish you were here with me and experiencing all the holiday traditions that your brother gets to. The days leading up to your angelversary kept getting harder and harder and tears would fill my eyes alot easier however I did pretty good keeping them inside and not crying because I didn't want your brother to see me upset and I didn't want your sister to feel me upset. Being pregnant with your sister at the same time that you left us and went to heaven is a bitter sweet feeling, I am so blessed that she was given to us and can not wait to meet her and I think she knew mommy was having a bad day because all day on the 18th she kept kicking me like crazy probably to let me know she was ok on such a hard day for me. I cant believe that its been 5 years since I held you, since I saw your precious face, and since I touched your sweet fragile skin it seems like just yesterday and the memory is just as vivid as it was the day you were brought into this world. There is not a moment that goes by that I don't think of you and that I don't picture you doing the things your brother is doing, saying the things he is saying and wondering if you would be more of a stinker than him or not lol I miss you so so much and love you more than words can explain. I love you my precious boy!! Continue to watch over us and keep us all save and please make sure your little sister enters this world beautiful and healthy :) I love you Evan Michael ♥
Love,
Mommy!!
Loved this poem, I know it isn't your first year in heaven but this makes me think of you very very much! ♥
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