My little man is now 1 month 3 days old and just a growing and growing. He is now 2lbs 13.8oz and is 16 1/4 inches long. He is now off of all his medicines and is just eating my breast milk every 3 hrs at 24 mls a feeding and he gets vitamins once a night, which he doesn't seem to mind or get sick from them. He is now pretty much just considered a feeder/grower which means that all he needs to do is keep growing and learn how to eat all by himself, which we will start to try to nipple him in about a week and a half. I cant wait, for me and Shauna to be able to feed him from a bottle and for me to actually be able to say that I breastfeed him, instead of I'm breast pumping. lol He still has at least 5 weeks maybe longer before he can come home but now he has less than 2lbs to gain before he can come home ;-) woohooo. He's staying awake longer and starting to wake up more for his feedings as well, which is good because his tummy is telling his brain that he is hungry. (Leave it to my son, to wake himself up to eat, hes just like his momma, haha) He's doing amazing and I just love him so so much!!
Here's my venting now....
I miss him really bad when I have to leave the hospital and it keeps getting harder and harder to leave him because hes growing to much and I don't want to miss anything and I just feel like I'm being cheated because hes not with me at home. I get very jealous when I am around other mommies that get to have their baby home with them, because I have a baby too, I want to show him off as well. I am just like them but they get to have their baby home with them. I know my time will come and I cant wait because it will be the next happiest moment in my life. He seems to give me many happy moments lol. He even is starting to wake up to the sound of my voice sometimes, which just melts my heart because I know that he knows I'm there. I wish and hope the next 5-8 weeks go by so fast so I can have my precious baby home with me. I want those sleepless nights, I want to be able to not be able to do anything but care for him throughout my day. I want it, I want it, I want it!!!
I know Shauna wants him home too, the look on her face when she looks into his eyes is priceless and lets me know that she is my soul mate and the best person in this world to have as my sons other mommy. He is loved so much and I know that he will grow up to be the best son we could ever have. I know we want to try in a couple years for him to be a big brother, but I am so content with the little family I have know. I know my angel Evan is watching over us and is proud of him mommies and his brother.
Evan, mommy loves you and misses you very much! I think about u all the time and not a moment goes by that I don't think about you watching over me. I know that when I'm resting you are right there, when I'm driving you are keeping me safe, and when I'm having a bad day you are whispering sweet nothings in my ear to brighten up my day. I love you son!!!
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