Dear Evan,
Mommy has been missing you a lot lately and even though I know you are looking over me, I just had to write to you as well. There are many moments in my day that I miss you so so much, especially when your other mommy is at work, because I am home by myself thinking of you and your brother and all the things that mommy could have done with you guys. I think about you all the time and when I go to see your brother I can tell you are watching over him, because he is so strong. Thank you my little angel for taking care of your brother. I wish you were here with me so I could hold you and show you how much I love you. I hurt so much for you sometimes and I know that's not what you want mommy to do but I cant help it because I love you so much and there is an empty spot that you were suppose to fill when you were born. I look at your brother and see you! The thought that you are not here anymore makes mommy sad and I'm sorry if you see me cry sometimes it doesn't mean I blame you at all and mommy doesn't blame herself either. I had so many dreams and thoughts for you that I wish you were here to complete them. Don't think that mommy is always sad because sometimes I think about you, and you make me so happy. Thinking about the 1st time that mommy Shauna saw you kick and she thought it was so gross, but she kept trying to make you do it again and again. You were always so cute in your ultrasound pictures and even when you came out you and your brother were the cutest little 1lb babies mommy has ever seen. I hope you and my grandpa are having a good time up there and my grandpa will be teaching you how to tie your shoes just like he taught me. Its been 3 weeks since you left us and went to a better place. Both mommies love you very much and think about you all day. Watch over us son and make sure we are safe. I love you!!!
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